February 2012
5 posts
After I was introduced to the concept of “repetition compulsion,” I started to notice some very odd things.
In short, the “repetition compulsion” is a certain inclination to acquaint ourselves as human beings with the ones that resemble our family and certain connections that we develop from a young age.
At first, I found this concept to be fascinating. Looking at the...
I have way too much time on my hands.
I really really really do.
When I looked back at my Tumblr, and at Tumblrs past, I see the same progression.
Over and over again, my Tumblr’s start off with a pure and perfect combination of honesty and ambiguity. Then, after a few weeks, I shift my focus to something else or realize that there are much better things to do with my time.
After that, my Tumblr’s take a different...
I’m pretty sure that social anxiety is the single thing that inhibits me from reaching my true potential. And it sucks, it really really really does.
January 2012
5 posts
Over the years, I developed the notion that my own welfare comes before anything else. I don’t owe anyone else anything that I don’t want to give them and I don’t have the ability to let someone in unless I learn to truly embrace what I have first. Looking back, I see nothing but my own selfish and careless mistakes hurting anyone that crossed my path. Last week, I was given a...
I have this pattern of pushing people away. And, looking back, I’ve found that that’s all I ever did to you. I don’t know why, or how I didn’t notice, or why I never apologized for dragging you along like I did. I really don’t know why you didn’t just leave it alone and stop talking to me altogether.
I think that’s why it’s so hard for me to move...
December 2011
21 posts
A year ago today...
A year ago today, I vowed that 2011 would be a better year.
A year ago today, I was headed toward the airport and couldn’t be more relieved about coming home…which may be deemed strange because there was a huge blizzard up in NY and everyone up here was yelling at me for complaining about how I had to wear a sweater in Florida.
But that’s besides the point.
One year later, I...
Behind every atheist, there was a person who believed that G-d existed.
Behind every feminist, there was a girl who struggled vigorously and she once believed that her worth was measured by how she impressed a boy.
17 and indifferent
I’m always going to be too young.
For the longest time, I was too young for two reasons: I was “jail bait” and I was in high school. Even though I was too young, my age or the fact that I’m still in high school hasn’t been a barrier. But it does cause some unspoken conflict of some sort…
As of four days ago, I stopped being “jail bait” (at least in...
Spilling my thoughts onto a public platform...
Is there a set list of criteria that one must have in order to be ostracized? Because I feel like there is one, but the outcome of who really stands out (for better or for worse) is arbitrary to a degree.
Sometimes, I think that I have the strength to finally withdraw from the prescription medication I’ve been taking. Of course, when I try and skip one or two days, I feel compelled to...
dingraha replied to your post: dingraha replied to your post: Warning: Whiny…
No not you , your idiot fuckface archenemy! :p that shit is poison! Poison!
Well thankfully, in a few months, I’ll never have to see her face again. And hopefully I won’t encounter someone like her in my future endeavors (at least to as much of an extreme)
dingraha asked: I'm glad youre back on tumblr :o)
dingraha replied to your post: Warning: Whiny bitch alert. (Sorry)
Why do people even give a fuck about anything in highschool, god damnit you kids make me so mad
Me? :0
I’m pretty sure I got over high school a while ago. And, for the most part, I’m above all of this drama. But I can’t just sit aside if she’s going to ruin my connections with teachers, other students that...
Warning: Whiny bitch alert. (Sorry)
Sooooo here’s a synopsis of why I’m going to stop pretending that I am in any way acquainted with you.
Unlike you, I like to keep a certain image for myself. And that doesn’t make me fake. I know that, in any form of the word, I am not trashy. And I won’t let you make me look or feel that way.
I guess I’m wrong to assume that you should know that there’s a...
November 2011
16 posts
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What do I say when a college admissions officer asks me why I want to major in Gender Studies?
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“The world is beautiful, but has a disease called man.”
– Friedrich Nietzsche (via cruello)
It is what it is.
Maybe it wasn’t what it should have been, or maybe it was what it couldn’t be, but that should be disregarded as irrelevant. The tragedy of certain terms have been given a negative connotation, and they add certain meanings to acts that should be considered inherently natural and necessary (to a broad extent) to the human experience.
Maybe the only reason I thought...
Tidbits (I promise I'm not being sarcastic, even...
A few days ago, I fell asleep in your arms. I love how easy it is to differentiate between the you I know in other aspects of my life.
I promised myself to keep the many different facets in my life separate. Oops.
There was a reason for that.
I wish that you wouldn’t keep my clothing as a way to get me back. Although I would love to have it back, I’m not going to compromise myself...
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If I could sleep forever...
October 2011
7 posts
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