I have way too much time on my hands.

I really really really do.

When I looked back at my Tumblr, and at Tumblrs past, I see the same progression.

Over and over again, my Tumblr’s start off with a pure and perfect combination of honesty and ambiguity. Then, after a few weeks, I shift my focus to something else or realize that there are much better things to do with my time. 

After that, my Tumblr’s take a different form. They start to lose honesty because I don’t want people to know anything too personal (my threshold for this condition is slightly ambiguous itself, but it’s still there), and therefore shift words around in order to make it ambiguous.

However, I just realized that, in doing so, I have lost a lot of meaning in what I want to say. 

I don’t mean to seem as if I’m lamenting about a lost love that I chased away when I’m really talking about a friend that passed away. I don’t mean to seem like I’m a drug addict when I’m really talking about clinical issues that are being handled in a professional manner. I don’t mean to sound like a whiny and sensitive prick when someone pushes me over the edge. I really don’t.

So, I just wanted to write this (if any of you actually read this) in order to clarify these few things.